Well that was embarrassing. Watermelon head or not, that was certainly a menomoment, worthy of being added to the list of "what the hell was that?". It's the end of it, that's what it is. I will find my method that works or continue avoiding those projects. Amen.
My cousin in MN sent me a photo of her and her sister (the one with FT dementia in a facility) and it was so very upsetting. This vibrant world traveler only 3 years older than I am. Her once shining eyes are empty, her strong frame diminished to a slump, her beautiful face I could no longer recognize, her intelligent speech now unintelligible. I wasn't expecting such a rapid and drastic deterioration.
Enjoy your day.
For 30 minutes, be alone in silence, breathe deeply, stretch your body, observe your surroundings, touch everything, embrace your sadness, feel your pain, cry to cleanse, let it go, smile at the sky, be stunned by the vastness, open your heart, and thank God for being able.