Sep 12, 2016

My mind

is preoccupied, creating problems with what should be simple tasks.  Everyday ordinary.  Not requiring much thought.  But lately I need to double check everything I am doing.

When I list these few (and getting fewer) items, they will probably be the last.  It's fun when it goes well, but nothing has been.  You wouldn't believe the files I lost (several times) from hitting Revert instead of Save. 

Carole has been having difficulties with her breathing for about a month.  She almost ended up in the ER two nights ago.  The thought of submitting to another catheterizaton after what she has been through, was not even a consideration for her.  Now, she finally agrees with me and is willing to go to the Clinic.  Her cardiologist that got her through these past years, is also mine, and she is devastated from the news of his prognosis.  It's hard for her to trust anyone else.  Several doctors in his same practice were there for her "events", and even caused the most life threatening.  Maybe nothing can be done, the new valve has not had the results expected, and the CHF will continue to worsen.  She felt a little better yesterday, but anxiety and fear make everything worse.  I'm back to barely sleeping, waiting for those mid-night phone calls of desperation once again. This morning it rang at 7am, but was my own doctor.  As you've all experienced, those early calls shake you for a while.  But my coffee cup that reads "stitch happy" is calm and steady right now!
 
Carole's new bridgework has broken four times and my new crown (in the front) is quite a bit darker than my teeth.  I can have it ground off and order a lighter shade, but of course, at my expense.

For the next few days I will go through my linens and charts and look for a little project that I can't screw up.  That would be a reproduction, my favorite type of project that hides errors of all sorts.  But Santa is calling to me.  We'll see.  I need to step back and recharge, hoping to break this pattern of distraction. 
 
Have a good start to your week.
 
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20 comments:

debbie haggard said...

Marly, hope you can continue to simplify your life as much as possible. You do not need the added and unnecessary distractions and stress. Hugs to you .

Kristen said...

Sorry to hear that your sister isn't doing well, Marly. I hope things get better.

Beth in IL said...

Hope things get better soon. Sending hugs your way.

capecodgirl565 said...

Know that both you and your sister are in my prayers. Hope things improve very soon!

Vickie said...

Me too! I am praying for you both. I am sorry things are not going well.

Jacqueline said...

Breathe...have a glass of wine, a little (or a lot) of chocolate, grab a handful of charts and sit down and relax for a bit as you ponder the next stitchery.

Lynda (Granny K) said...

Sorry to hear that you and your sister are having a tough time. Hope things improve for you.

kelley said...

well crap...do you have any tomatoes you could throw at a tree...couldn't hurt...can you email me your address..I have something for the cats...

Karen Budnick said...

Take care of yourself, Marly. I know it's easy to lose yourself when caring for someone else. Ask me how I know...15 years ago (when 9/11 happened) my first husband was in end-stage prostate cancer and I had lost myself in his disease. His therapist told me to get myself to a gym and lose some weight or I'd be in my own world of trouble. Praying for you,

Karen

deb said...

Hope a bit of stash sifting therapy helps soothe. You - and your sister - are in my thoughts and prayers.

Margaret said...

So sorry to hear your sister is unwell again. Try not to stress too much. I know that's impossible, but try. You need to take care of yourself too.

Julie - My Primitive Heart said...

Hi Marly,
Such wonderful and caring comments from so many and I want to add mine as well!
So very sorry to hear about Carole and will keep her AND you in my prayers!!!
Please take care of yourself, my friend!
Sending Hugs and Prayers~
Julie

Bobbie Whittington said...

Praying for you and your sister Marly!!

Truus said...

So sorry to hear about your problems and Carole having trouble again.
A big hug and my prayers for all of you.
Greetings Truus from Holland

C. M. Designs said...

You and Carole are in my thoughts and prayers. Having had a husband who had a congenital heart condition, I can only imagine what you and Carole are going through.
Life was like living on a roller coaster.
Know that I'm thinking about you and hoping everything will go well for both of you.
Hugs,
Charlotte in Va.

Carol said...

No wonder you are having trouble concentrating with all you have going on in your life, Marly. I'm really sorry to hear that Carole is having such health issues again... Please remember to take some time for yourself--that is so important when acting as caregiver. Sending you a hug...

Rugs and Pugs said...

Life can sometimes be tough and sometimes tougher. Carole is so lucky to have you but you must take care of yourself in order to take care of her!
Hugs :)
Lauren

Cricket-bug Corner said...

I'm sorry you guys are having tough times. I think of you often and hope things get better!!

Ms Peppercorn said...

I wish I could help in some way. I am so sad that you are sad.

Maggee said...

Sending you Big Hugs and praying for you and Carole!

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