Continuing

 One day good news, two days poor, yesterday better, today worse.  Expecting an update from the doctor at the Clinic some time today.

Margret had a few more changes, and whether caused by spite, anger, intention, or error, all are just fine.  When concentration or focus is out the window, (following your laptop and anything else ticking you off), a sampler like Margret Withrow is the perfect project.  She is accepting of frustrations, intolerance, moods, choices, thoughts, emotions.  No judgement, no criticism, allowing you the freedom of your own will.  Very glad I found her.  

My house is loaded with very large petunias we must dodge in every room.  Baby it's cold outside, has been, and will continue, so inside they must stay.  The Paradise Vista has very thick stems which are breaking easily, and since it's early in May, I trimmed them along with the others.  In two weeks the plants will be more dense with twice the flowers.

For many years the front of our house had red geraniums, or a mini tunia in white.  Not those tiny million bells that never survived summer, a little larger.  Hoping this is it.  Covered in flowers all summer hanging several feet below the pot.  These are only 8" pots but will be moved to a larger.  For $9, I may go back to check other colors. 

I hope everyone had a special Mother's Day.  
And a warm jacket.
Take care.

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Bubblegum and Paradise

 Nothing good to report so I won't.

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Visited the Amish on the return trip from the Clinic (she was kept), Carole requested her Vista Bubblegum and I am trying the recent color addition to the Vista line, Paradise.  It's raining so not a good photo.  She wants six ferns and I need a few, haven't found the rock bottom price offer this year.  We may go this weekend, free Amish donuts at one nursery that were the best I ever had in my life.  I can't identify the hint of flavoring used, nor can I bribe them to spill the secret.

More pink/coral than the Fuchsia, but probably will not be as prolific and massive as the Silverberry and Bubblegum.  But I don't really give a pink petal what they do.   No date on the sewer excavating, no plan for restoration of the back area.  Nor the money.  This summer will not be leisurely or pleasant, and will probably pass as swiftly as spring has.  Chilly, possible frost, very cool nights all next week.  Please Nitzy, do not spray our flowers

Losing another molar, the third, because of a dental hygienist that failed to recommend perio surgery during my twelve years with her.  She is still in that office, arrogant and unapologetic.  A root canal in another is also needed, can't schedule until we know more from the Clinic on Monday.   But I will suffer through that donut tomorrow, my Anbesol tube in pocket.

Have a nice weekend.

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Constantly changing

 We'll be heading to CC very early Thursday, but from what I've heard from others, after laying in rehab unable to move a leg of stone while it continues to turn black, probably can't be helped.  Don't even ask, too lengthy.  I have been out of patience for some time and now I am almost out of Ativan.  

When distraction, anxiety, worry, fear, and grief have acquired too much property in your brain, and hormones left you too long ago to fight back.

Margret's top right edge ...

(which did not need a change)

What I did today ...
(good grief, why?)

What I should have done... 
(of course)

 And will change tomorrow.

(absolutely)

Before returning to edge as it should be.

(maybe)

The End.

Is this cat yoga?

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The hut

The cave.  Seeing an empty bed at night and early morning is heart wrenching isn't it?  As frail as he had become, we were surprised to see him scratch deck posts, chase Missy to the woods, and jump on the bed several times each eve to snooze next to Mark as he watched a game.  So I carried him to that bed and Mark took over stroking him until the very end.  Thank God for the mobile vet that added us.  She kept in touch throughout the day making sure Bud was comfortable and not in pain.  He had a stroke, mobility was hampered as was eyesight, but we were talking and touching him so he was not afraid.  His final day was calm and quiet, snoozing in his hut as we kept him company.

  Mark visited Carole, came home and saw Nit in Bud's freshly washed hut, yelled to him to get out - that's Bud's!  Gives us a head turn too since he is the image of his dad.  Mark is having a hard time after the last few months, more so than he expected.  Missy has not stopped meowing.

The left side of Margret (36 count PTP Legacy) is stitched, and I doubt I will take it to Cleveland but who knows.  Everything has been undecided, unplanned, postponed, cancelled, rescheduled, for both Carole and myself  for months.  So why waste time choosing?  Better to kit a few (which I rarely do) and throw them in a bag.  I'd like to have new books ready in hopes she will be recovering in a facility.  Nightmares wake me that she will not. Macomber and Karon are her favorites.  Are Susan Wigg's stories similar?   She's read a few Evanovich and Patterson but as soon as blood and guts are mentioned, she's done. Historical are too involved for her. 

Thank you everyone.

Have a nice Sunday.  In May.  Damn.

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My Budman

 We have no idea when your birthday was, month or even year.  You were a faithful companion to your Missy, and watchful dad to your son.  The only one of this rescued crew that wanted attention and touch.  We will miss you dear boy.

Sleep well.

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Punching drops

 Hi stitching buds.  I am in shock that this weekend is May.  Are we sure?  Usually by Mother's Day the deck is cleaned, windows washed, screens in, outdoor furniture in place for flowers and ferns, summer clothing out, and sweaters packed.  The majority of those tasks would be a waste of time since concrete dust and mud will require starting over.  

My anxiety weight loss has continued and with no end to the mouth issues, I should be able to fit in last summer's pants which rarely happens.  Thank you Macy's for the Karen Scott extreme comfort and forgiving knit capris!  I had gained some back after the initial loss but currently down almost 25 pounds.  I can't remember if I donated all those smaller clothes that were packed, unpacked, packed, unpacked.  Isn't that the way it always is?  Once you rid yourself of things, you want them.  Recently saw the Plantation Sampler finished and I sold the chart along with others thinking I would never stitch it.  And here's the quirk!  If I found another and purchased again, I would stash it away and in a few years, it would leave again.  

Medical update ..  the wonderful doctor at CC had his office call and offer us a double booking.  Several weeks after a second aortic valve replacement and cardiogenic shock, this stress is not good for her.  And ... you won't believe this .... after all the messages, calls, and tricks to get her moved up, an offer of a mid afternoon appt today had to be refused. It was an early morning call so ambulance transport had time to schedule her, and when I called to set it up, I had a little bit of shock.  Did not know that hemoglobin had another drop and she required a transfusion.  Today.  Would never be over in time, especially with a two hour drive.  She was so upset.  I told her things happen for a reason, and we now will have to leave at 6am the end of next week unless we can find a cancellation.  What are the odds of hours of work to get an appt moved up, at the perfect time of day, and after several weeks TODAY she needs blood.  Holy crap.

I have to call the desk this evening because that change in meds is not enough, and she was informed that it was one day and they are to reduce it to every six hours again.  She is adamant about not going into nursing home care (for recovery between procedures) since our locals are terrible, but the one about 40 minutes from here is praised by residents and family alike.  I do believe they will expect her to stay at a skilled facility of their choice near the clinic since the CC docs visit patients there.  We'll see.

Now about that drop.  I wanted to make a few thread drops so purchased a Fiskars punch months ago.  Is this right?  The hole is much closer to the edge than I expected and is not sturdy enough since stitch tension isn't the only time my tugs can be aggressive.  I assumed the margin edge would be as shown on the lever but it isn't.  So is there a punch that you use and allows a little thicker edge to prevent tearing?  

It's 8pm and still light enough to see critters in the yard, summer is around the bend.  We're all hoping that taking these bends way over the speed limit will cease while offering relief and recovery.  Going up for a hot shower, coming down to stitch if I can stay awake. 

Have a good evening and a pleasant TGIF folks.

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