Oct 16, 2024

Waiting

 Today, at some point, they are inserting Chris into surgery schedule.  ER again and again, finally an answer yesterday from testing that should have been done the first visit, he was admitted several days ago.  Should be a routine surgery.  The friend I lost last year had same symptoms, same negative tests, until that same routine surgery revealed an untreatable and rare cancer.  Remote as it is, we can't stop the anxiety.

Honestly, losing her has not sunk in just yet, but I have not slept more than two hours a night since.

Stitching?  Could care less.  I finished the PS ornaments, and picked up Anne Hughs 1852 again.  Too many errors and corrections, not interested in a project so involved.  May stop at this point.

No emails, blogs, social media have been read.  I did view two floss tubes and entered one's giveaway.  Hope everyone is doing well, my heart breaks seeing Helene's destruction.

Be safe.  Be well.

Thank you.

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17 comments:

JustGail said...

Damn. Now Chris is in hospital?! You can't get a break from familly health woes it seems. Hope his surgery goes well.

wranglerkate said...

Give yourself the time you need to heal. And my deepest best wishes for Chris.

Heritage Hall said...

Marly, please go easy on yourself with this latest concern. You need the time to rest and heal. Just wish you had a stitching project that was a shoo in and
gratifying... one may turn up. Please indulge yourself with care in the meantime.

diamondc said...

Hello Marly: It is always hard to lose a family member I lost three in a very short span, it is hard but I have finally come to terms with it, I have friends that tell me to just get over it, I cannot, I do however know now that the time it takes to heal is not easy.
I hope you continue to stitch, it does help me to heal from loss.

Hugs and even bigger hugs
Catherine

diamondc said...

Marly: Hoping Chris has good results at the doctor.

Catherine

Linda said...

When my brother passed away I felt like I didn't deserve to be happy. No Christmas or birthday celebration for me for 2 years. I wish you peace

Vickie said...

I am praying for Chris and his surgery. You take care of yourself. I am praying for you also. xoxo

Anonymous said...

let time pass you need to care of yourself kisses

TheCrankyCrow said...

Oh Marly...I'm so sorry to read about Chris. Will be sending up prayers.... It's almost been a year and it still hasn't sunk in for me either....and 2 years since losing my mum and Snowdog...and that pain hasn't dulled either. I have no words of wisdom.... Just know I'm holding you close in my heart... ~Robin~

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and sending caring thoughts. Everything is still fresh, it will take a long time to heal. Pamper yourself and do whatever you need to do, whether it be take a nap, eat some chocolate, or have a good cry...or scream! just be good to yourself.

Truus said...

Marly it needs a long time to accept the loss of Carole and it hurts no longer thinking of her but just remembering the good times with her.
It will take a long time and that is good and please cry,yell or everything do what can give you some release from the pain missing Carole.
Sending prayers for Chris 🍀👼🏻🙏
Lots of love and a big hug-- take care of yourself too- Truus from Holland

C M Designs said...

Have been thinking of you, wondering how you are. I can only imagine the grief you are feeling. Praying that Chris's surgery will be successful and he will soon be on the road to a happy, healthy life. Glad you finished your PS ornaments. That's a positive, good thing. Wish I could wiggle my nose and make everything better for you. So much sadness, illness, cancer in this world. Take care, try to get more sleep.

Robin in Virginia said...

Continued prayers for you, Marly. Adding Chris and his upcoming surgery to my prayers as well. Thinking of you.

Donna Dirty Martini Queen said...

Marly, please be kind to yourself through the grieving process. I started a “journal” when my momma passed in 2019. I write about all the family news both good and bad along with my thoughts or feelings on any given day. In the beginning the pages were soaked with tears but over the years that has changed a lot. I still talk to her but it’s thoughtful now rather than pain. She sends me dimes and my granny sends me pennies(she was very frugal) so I stop when I randomly find them to say HI. When my younger brother had the aneurysm burst in 2023, while cleaning his room I found 3 different piles of .11 in there. Prayers for Chris’ healing.

Not to pile on but we live in Asheville and things are really bad. We still don’t have water and just got power last Thursday evening. We go fill our water pails daily and go to the YMCA to take showers a couple of times a week. We aren’t complaining because we were spared and only had a few trees come down. So many suffering right now is overwhelming and it started snowing Tuesday in the areas hardest hit. Some of the “mountain people” may never recover. I thought that I’d have lots of stitching time since I could charge my battery for ott light as we have a small generator, instead I’m scrolling for news, crying for everyone that lost everything in a split second and trying to pull together basic needs to donate.

Carol said...

I so hope Chris' surgery went well yesterday, Marly. Honestly, it just seems like one thing after another at different phases of our lives and it certainly seems you are in one of those phases now. Lack of sleep is so frustrating and can make the days seem endless. I hope things improve in that area soon. As far as missing Carole, I have no words of wisdom. My mom has been gone over four years now and I can't even look at a picture of her without crying. I still talk to her and cry the whole time. Believe it or not, that does help--for a while. I just tell her what's been going on in my life as though we were on the phone together. The grief journey is so different for each individual.Take care now... Thinking of you ♥

Rugs and Pugs said...

Prayers for Chris...and you and Mark.

Anonymous said...

Marly, it’s going to take time to heal and in the meantime, look for things that make you happy. My brother passed away almost 30 yrs. ago (cancer) and I cried every day for at least a year. I still miss him everyday. So, give yourself time and savor the good memories. I hope everything works out for Chris. Thinking of you and sending hugs….Cherie in WI

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