is preoccupied, creating problems with what should be simple tasks. Everyday ordinary. Not requiring much thought. But lately I need to double check everything I am doing.
When I list these few (and getting fewer) items, they will probably be the last. It's fun when it goes well, but nothing has been. You wouldn't believe the files I lost (several times) from hitting Revert instead of Save.
Carole has been having difficulties with her breathing for about a month. She almost ended up in the ER two nights ago. The thought of submitting to another catheterizaton after what she has been through, was not even a consideration for her. Now, she finally agrees with me and is willing to go to the Clinic. Her cardiologist that got her through these past years, is also mine, and she is devastated from the news of his prognosis. It's hard for her to trust anyone else. Several doctors in his same practice were there for her "events", and even caused the most life threatening. Maybe nothing can be done, the new valve has not had the results expected, and the CHF will continue to worsen. She felt a little better yesterday, but anxiety and fear make everything worse. I'm back to barely sleeping, waiting for those mid-night phone calls of desperation once again. This morning it rang at 7am, but was my own doctor. As you've all experienced, those early calls shake you for a while. But my coffee cup that reads "stitch happy" is calm and steady right now!
Carole's new bridgework has broken four times and my new crown (in the front) is quite a bit darker than my teeth. I can have it ground off and order a lighter shade, but of course, at my expense.
For the next few days I will go through my linens and charts and look for a little project that I can't screw up. That would be a reproduction, my favorite type of project that hides errors of all sorts. But Santa is calling to me. We'll see. I need to step back and recharge, hoping to break this pattern of distraction.
Have a good start to your week.
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