Thank you

I so appreciate all the links and information to help with caring for Bud.  I requested the antibiotic injection but the doctor said it would not be as effective and require frequent visits, too much stress for his failing heart.  The gloves are rather heavy and trying to hold a small syringe and push the plunger at the right time would probably not work.  Bud is amazingly strong as the vet remarked, and I could not hold his mouth open regardless of the video instructions saying it's possible.  No it ain't.  Giving him a tiny piece of Valium which I thought would be best, is not recommended either.  First of all, in order to get anything into him, I need to push it down his throat, and we just can't manage that.  He only eats the watered pate on his terms, and trying to keep the others away from it until he is ready to try is an all day hassle.  The vet said that any type of sedative or like product affects how the heart beats and lungs work, his heart is critical and any change could cause an event.  I have a call into his unit about the situation and will see if he would change his mind about using injections.  Bud's issue will not be resolved with anything other than surgery, out of the question.  We are basically just buying him more time and comfort.  The medication is Clindamycin, targeting the mouth. Amoxicillin injections which are usually given, would have no response.  My brother is telling me to see his vet, always loaded with patients and a long wait, no thanks.  

My wrist is much better, the soreness is the spot where it was shattered many years ago, and two of the punctures are deep and on the tendon from base of thumb into wrist.  Not a problem but I wonder if the one in the fatty part above the wrist is a bite or claw.  Very tender and red but the hole is small.  I'll keep an eye on it. 

This lucky duck received a fat half of 36 Vellum in the mail and my 123 order shipped yesterday.  This duck also continues to have issue with symmetry and can certainly accept most of it in reproductions.  But not always.  The spaces in these marked areas range from two to four.  I moved a few.  Couldn't help it.  No plans to align the inner edge which doesn't catch my eye as quickly as the outer.

This should have been completed months ago and I am trying very hard in my misery to continue.  It's to the point that I can't speak for more than ten minutes, miss talking to friends.  Ridiculous.

Hope your day is pleasant.

Thank you for everything.

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Not much hope

 This is very difficult as so many of you know and have experienced, but I don't think we can give Bud more time.  The antibiotic would help with the bacteria, and pain management is critical so he can eat.  He is the lone social of the brat pack, and does allow us at times to pet him, and be a lap cat for a brief brushing.  But even applying flea meds to his back is tricky.  

The first attempt at inserting the syringe failed, we tried again this evening.  His mouth being so painful contributes to the resistance I am sure, but I can't take the chance of a bite from a mouth full of bacteria.  My brother was almost hospitalized and required medication for six weeks.  Bud not only was trying to bite me but somehow in his attempt to escape from the wrapping got his claw caught on my bracelet.  In a flash, everything was happening, my wrist yanked and twisted, pain was bad enough to nauseate me.  I can use my fingers now, the punctures from his claws are cleaned.  Bud won't allow us near him but he isn't limping, I assume his leg was not injured.  Four syringes of meds a day for two weeks?  We've already lost four doses.  Feliway is no help, catnip either.  Not able to get the Covid vaccine, we decided I cannot take the chance of an infection that could be very serious.  I am really upset about this, and terrifying Bud when trying to immobilize him is stress on his bad heart.  One more attempt tomorrow, more Feliway, but I don't have much hope.  

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The Budman

 Hi everyone.  Bud's exam in the vetmobile did not go well.  As thin and old as he is, doc said he is a tough customer and was unable to fully examine Bud's mouth.  The assistant was large and strong, and even while wrapped, Bud was extremely difficult.  His gums are bright red, very swollen, and bled when touched.  The further back he tried to see the more inflamed it was.  There are cancers that could cause this, or the plaque buildup, but his heart is so bad the anesthesia could be fatal or cause more injury. So he offered an antibiotic that targets the mouth, and gabapentin for pain.  With two professionals unable to handle him, he doesn't expect we will be able to insert a syringe four times a day.  Already failed twice.  Mark could not hold his head still enough and honestly, the stress to Bud is just as damaging.  So we will try to keep him happy and comfortable but I can't see that lasting much longer.  

Continuing stitching progress and all errors but one are standing proud and staying put.  And I am very anxious to be done with Elizabeth.  Elizabeth was my MIL's name, she died at 54 from ovarian cancer.  Mark said there was always a container of baby powder on the edge of the tub.  Elizabeth was his sister's middle name, who died at 43.  Elizabeth was my dearest friend's name who passed several years ago.   None of which have anything to do with the Elizabeth Clayton sampler, but reminiscing usually accompanies this type of mood.

Hoping you all have a pleasant Wednesday  It won't be long before January disappears.

As did the pie.

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One thing leads to another

Nice to hear I'm not the only one that is somewhat obsessed with error location.  Most times, it leads to more.  The edge aligns with the 1 but not the A further down, don't know why.  But the C is two spaces below the first T and it should be three which would make the A part off by one more, but since the C error moved it up a row which should correct alignment by the A but not the 1, but the second T doesn't line up with edge even though it moved up one because of the C error yet it's down one, and that long looking stitch in the outside edge turns out to be over three and off one linen thread.  So I baked a pie.

This pie plate is Anchor Hocking and the only one I found with handles this large.  Others are just too small for arthritic hands with a fat hotpad.

The spool huggers help but I still gather some areas when stitching in hand, and found it's a good idea to press and allow the linen to relax every once in a while.  I also wanted to unroll and see the entire sampler so far. 

 Beneath the vase will be several rows of grass, so this is very close to the bottom.

This vase and greenery are all color changes, not because I planned it, but that's another story.

Do you wear those fuzzy socks instead of slippers?  I do.  And I found a brand that is the softest and best fitting online.  Earth Therapeutics with Aloe.  They offered 15% off and free shipping at $25 so I got four pair and they are heavenly, total comfort. They do leave a ring around my Polish ankles but what doesn't.

Anxious about the vet visit tomorrow and wish I didn't have to pay the extra $$$ for a home visit, but he panics and bolts at times and having him in the carrier if that should happen would be terrifying.  

Have a good evening.

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Moving on

 You know I love borders but only the look, not the creation.  This one could not be more forgiving and simple, yet I have spent hours trying to locate the error causing me to be off in width, length, and alignment.  Why?  Just move on!  Is it necessary to locate the errant stitch?  If that happens, would I remove all the others because of that little bastard to correct it?  No, it does not change the body nor is it noticebable.  Then why does it create such a drive to find it and any others contributing to the shift?

All it takes is a few in millions to throw off the balance, destroy common sense, inflame emotions, and become a controlling force that consumes.  I've let it go before, time to do that again.  

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Ewe & Eye

 Didn't they have some really special little projects?  Not routine, most with a few specialty stitches, but small enough to not be daunting.  So why did I sell most all?  This Christmas Sampler was one I had missed and thanks to Laura, discovered.  And found on Ebay.  The very small chart photos are hard to examine but I grabbed it without hesitation because I do love the elements.  Will of course darken the thread color for those areas not displaying.  Next project?

I've been disappointed in two recent online orders that list items as in stock only to discover they sold out before mine could be filled.  It's not like I need them now, but I want them now.  I have a short attention span and will change my mind about wanting them by the time I get them.  

But tonight, I am planting my butt and during stitching breaks, scouring the atmosphere for whatever I want.  After news of another issue, I deserve to pamper myself a bit.  I've mentioned the progressing Sjogrens and how miserable I was.  The last two days have been more painful and unrelenting, with a loss of taste.  On top of the dryness and fissured tongue, BMS (Burning Mouth Syndrome) (not to be confused with Bitching Mouth Syndrome) has been diagnosed.  What the hell is that?  Simple.  Your fricking tongue is on fire.  Always.  And feels like it's waking from numbness.  Months to years duration.  Ice cream and sweet decaf iced coffee have become mainstays in my daily diet.  Watermelon is very comforting but that's a long way off.  C'mon summer!!!

I hope all is well with you!!

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