And I'm running out of Ativan. Didn't have many to begin with, took several trying to calm the palps. I mentioned that Carole is having difficulty breathing again at times, and it's been constant for two days now. Has she called her doctor? No. She doesn't want to go to the hospital, and if required, only in Cleveland. Go get an xray to see if your CHF is causing fluid in your lungs and can be treated. No. She will wait another day. It's fricking Friday and the doctor leaves at noon. We'll see. So wait until I hear you panicking on the phone at 3am that you can't breath and have an ambulance take you to a Covid filled hospital. She had all week to get help. I thought I was jittery before. Will I sleep? No. Memories of those weeks of mid night calls and panic are flooding me, I knew it would happen again, that's CHF. But with all the new meds that seemed to be helping, this is troubling. It's always in my mind that her failing heart will soon give out, and every episode of distress reinforces my fear.
I worked on the body of Elizabeth a little during the palp jitters but there is no way I can hold a steady needle until I have some answers or calm down. I'm not expecting either anytime soon.
Hope you have a nice weekend.
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Dec 3rd, today , is Thursday!
I sure hope your Friday will improve! Stress is not good.
Yep. Got my day right for a change. But at this hour she has no one to call so Friday morning is her last option before everyone is closed for the weekend.
Sorry to hear about Carole and all your troubles. Can you remember when your life felt a bit more carefree? I`m thinking in my life it was when I was in my 30`s (I`m in my 60`s now). Hope you have an uneventful weekend! P.S. Give us a Petey update
I'm so sorry you are going thru all this. I'll say some prayers for you and yours.
Prayers for a calm, uneventful Friday and weekend.
Your snow pictures are beautiful. Would love some in my yard.
You really don't need the stress, worry and agitation that you're going through, but Carole is you sister. Wish she could do more for herself without you having to worry yourself "silly".
Hope all is well with your kitties... Thinking of Bud.
Take care,
Hugs,
Charlotte in Va.
So so sorry Marly. My nerves are on edge with all this COVID and I hope your Friday is uneventful. It's certainly a scary time with all that's happening and I hope your surroundings quiet down so you can relax a bit. You do so much for others, hope you have time for yourself during this Christmas season.
A senior in my life uses Ativan and eats hot sauce when his heart palps. I should have bought stock in Clonazepam and Ativan last year. Seriously though, prayers your way for all that you endure
Hello there, so sorry this is still such a problem. Can you count your heart rate? This is important. Often when the palpitations are erratic the anxiety feeling is worse. If they are regularly irregular it is still upsetting but the oxygen level of your blood may be more stable.
I fully understand not wanting to go to a covid laden emergency room. A friend took her mother the other day, mother is late 80's with lots of problems and she had pneumonia. Still had to wait over 8 hours to be seen and treated. The hospitals are all overwhelmed now. There are still beds available in most of the city hospitals here but the staff is exhausted and over-worked. Your sister having chronic CHF is certainly in a high risk group.
Take care, try to rest. I know of nothing homeopathic to change your heart activity. I have been fortunate in that my medications have been tweaked several times and I am mostly under control.
(hugs) I wish I had magic words to make Carole pull up her big girl panties and take care of herself. Even more so since your own health woes have cropped up recently. At least don't drive you to anxiety and listen to you when you say to go to doctor before she ends up in ER at 2am. Or her family, yes I know - distance, jobs, and their own health issues, but if something happens to you, are they going to "dump" Carole's care on Mark? OK, I'm shutting up on that subject, it's been covered before, more than once :-)
Sending good calming thoughts to you!
Oh, you have so much on your plate, Marly--no wonder your palpitations are so bad. I hope Carole calls the doctor this morning--it is harder and harder to catch them in their offices as they all seem to be shortening their work days. My husband is having the same issues with his parents in assisted living--they always call him with a major issue on weekends when they can't get in to see the doctors. Sigh... Sending a caring hug up the road and hoping your beautiful stitching can help relieve at least some of the anxiety ♥
You have quite a few blessings going for you that should give you some semblance of peace and an ability to manage, were it not for the blips of Carol's episodes and her reliance soley upon you. Concentrate on your immediate creative surroundings, deal as best you can with the palpitations (which might go away without the stress) and insist that Carol either address her issues at the appropriate time or deal with the consequences. You can live your life for her, but you cannot live HER life for her and she should learn to push her shoulders back and face some of her responsibilities. Don't mean to seem harsh, but you have been so magnanimous in all you do and should be allowed to be kind without having to dissipate so much energy spinning your wheels in the process. Set some parameters, St.Marly.....Love you with blessings.
It is so frustrating when people involve you in the problems but seem to refuse to do anything to help themselves. Of course, she is your sister so of course you are involved. Most likely this makes your palpitations worse. She does need to realize how her behavior is affecting you. I will send good thoughts and a prayer your way!
I will not tarry on this post long, nor spend too many keystrokes commenting as I am thinking I am behind enough in my blog reading so there might be an update already... I just hope Carole knows how fortunate she is to have someone like you who concerns herself so over her...even if she crabasses her way through it. Some of us would have no one to call at 3 in the morning...even if we had heeded well-given advice. ~Robin~
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