As always, not stitched completely as charted. Since two have such limited allowance, I may topstitch alongside the border with matching linen on back and then fringe. I struggled in her dark room, but should have seen this.
Attaching the mini poms would require too much fuss, but adding between the front and back fringe while topstitching, that may be tolerable.
I had Boo to You #156 ready to start, but I won't. No desire to decorate for dreaded Fall or halloween. Christmas is everywhere and I can't even look at the offers. Not unusual at all to feel guilt whether socializing or enjoying what I love to do. It will pass as will time. I can't go into a market, store, even Amazon without being faced with items routinely purchased for her. I just wish her passing would have been quick and without weeks of suffering and anxiety. There are several things I had to do those last two days that I will never stop doubting, adding to my guilt. And I'm sure many of you experienced similar.
I still haven't caught up with blogs since early September, I enjoy that, therefore am avoiding it. My sister was a confidante and good listener to her friends, who now have been contacting me. I'm not Carole, and I feel terrible about their family troubles and children's health crises, so I will listen for a while. They miss her too.
Be well.
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13 comments:
Hi Marly: First no one should be dumping on you about their family problems, you have had a rough road with all that Carole had to endure, I do hope things get easier for you.
You are the rock of the family, you have been busy stitching, looking forward to seeing what else you are working on.
Catherine
I know that foreboding and dread. I've said that basically all my holidays have been darkened by death....My father died on Easter morning, Snowdog right before Halloween, my mom right before Christmas and my husband right before Thanksgiving. That leaves Valentine's Day which I've always despised in its own right. Love your little Prairie Schoolers. Perhaps the photos are deceiving but it looks to me like you still have room for a little sewn tuck? ~Robin~
Big Hugs Marly, and you're doing okay but please be brave and if you don't feel like listening to the troubles of others - say something nice like "Sorry, I'm having a bad day and I can't give you the attention you deserve." Maybe your caller swill realise you are still grieving. As for the stitching, I would e proud I was able to actually do something, the faults ca be rectified. xx Marian
Marly you are an angel that you are listening to the problems of the friends from Carole. As Marian says,be brave and tell them you are missing Carole too and are still grieving for her loss and you have enough of yourself at the moment. Wish them all the best, but please don't call for a while.
I am not a halloween fan-- sorry-- and with the trim it would be a solution for the small edges.
Take care and a big hug for you and Mark, Truus from Holland
I understand, Marly. Holidays or any days are not the same when we lose a loved one. Don't push yourself, give yourself all the time you need to grieve...that may be never ending, but that's okay.
I, too, wish that Carole had not had to live through, any of what she went through. God bless her in Heaven.
I love your PS pieces. Would make such cute pillows. They don't need anything else.
I lost my Dad just before Thanksgiving, my Mom on New Years Eve and my John was buried on Mother's Day. I truly understand what you are going through.
Sending hugs
You do not have to deal with others loads. You have your own dear Marly. Hugs and prayers for you my friend. God bless you.
Marly, take a walk in Nature. "Never does Nature say one thing, and Wisdom another." ~~Juvenal
Your PS pieces are darling, Marly. Sending you peace and comfort. While I know Carole's friends are grieving, they shouldn't be unloading on you as you are grieving for your dear sister. Continuing to prayer for peace for you and your husband.
Those who are calling you expecting to unload their problems on you are not your friends, they are/were Carole's. She is the one who had time to sit and listen and commiserate with them - often while you were trying to get things done that Carole could not or would not do for herself & her family. When they start with their woes, overtalk them YOUR woes of grief, flashbacks, memories, self-doubt, health & finance issues, etc. Don't ask about, or let them get a word in, on their problems. If that's a no-go, plead needing to leave for an appointment right away when they start with their problems. Give no details - they don't need to know if the appointment is your chair on the porch or a doctor. Only those who keep calling and listening to your woes, without being allowed to tell you theirs for a while, are worthy of being given a chance to be your friends too.
I understand not wanting to decorate, to pull back and have quiet to heal. Please don't deny yourself little spots of happiness when they appear. The grief will become less and pass over time, as you already know. I think you also know it will take a lot longer if you don't allow bits of happy in any time they show up. Don't punish yourself. Is that what Carole would have wanted for you?
The PS ornaments are very cute! I like the idea of the little pompom trim.
Take time to grieve and heal yourself. You were the best sister ever!!!
What about stitching them all together to make a cube.
Things will get better...it's just a bitch waiting for that to happen. Your PS pieces are wonderful. I think it's mean that Carole's friends are now dumping on you. You do NOT need that! Take care Marly.
Marly, I totally understand your comments about seeing the items you used to buy for Carole pop up on Amazon. My mom passed 15 months ago and some of them still pop up. I also understand your feelings of guilt. My mom was bedridden with dementia for almost 2 years and passed at 97 on my anniversary. The hospice nurse gave her the 8 o'clock morphine so that my husband and I could go out to dinner. I was supposed to visit again at 3 am. She died at 10:30pm. It hurts that I wasn't there, but it gets better. You did so very, very much for Carole. I think more than most sisters do. I agree with Catherine and Marian. You don't need to listen to the troubles of others. Have a quiet holiday season if you wish. Celebrate the joy of Jesus' birth as his death brings the hope of meeting our loved ones in the next life. Hugs.
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