That's a wrap

 Four of them in fact.  My heavy sweat clothes over cotton thermal, with two fleece and one sherpa throw on top.  How can you be so fricking cold when you have a fever?  So jittery and unnerved, this is weird.  We did not receive a call yet for a treatment appointment.  Getting nervous but not as much as Mark.  He doesn't want to leave me if I don't improve and he needs to be there for her surgery.  She is terrified and been told over and over how risky it is with her heart.  I will have to pretend as best I can that I am better.

This is the bronze mum opening, I expected to step into the sun reflecting off concrete and feel comforting warmth, did not happen.

Back to bed, trying to stay awake more than eight of the twenty four hours.

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A positive attitude

 is a good thing to have.  But a positive test is not.  I was very surprised that they called at 8:30pm, slightly more than 24 hours since my test.  They told me at the hospital results would not be available until Tuesday.  Two negatives with the swab in the car, this one absolute positive and wanted to call me right away.  I had a miserable night, high fever for the second time.  I had a fever days ago, next day felt fine without symptoms, nothing noted at the ER visit, and then the fever again.  The covid icu nurse told me this virus is so unpredictable, but she found that when it finds a host it likes, it will present and then retreat to gain strength.  And then it will knock you on your ass up to two weeks later.  But not always.  I asked her if it likes crabass bitches as hosts, she said that's like family to it.

So what does this mean?   Mark has to be with Carole for the surgery, I can't even stay quarantined at the hotel because Chris will be in the suite with us and I can't  contaminate him or have him take this to the hospital.  Dammit.  Dammit dammit dammit!

I am so tired of white.

I have a feeling I will be buying more unwanted linen tomorrow and charts I will never stitch.

Would love this one but not charted by anyone as far as I could tell, Sarah Shepherd 1851.  Is it?  I need to shift my distraction and focus on something enjoyable.  I know stress makes it all worse.  Well, hell!!  Haven't had any of that in the last nine months!  But I will get through this.

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Isolate

 from what?  Contradiction, misinformation, disagreement, conflicting data, lack of data, theories, conjecture, hypothesis, assumption, speculation.  I just spent the afternoon in the ER recommended by Mark's doctor, did not want to go knowing it would be another afternoon of wasted hours.  Four of them.  For nothing. I just started coughing yesterday, what did they expect to see on an x-ray?  My vaxed cousin got vitamin D, vitamin A, antibiotic, prescription cough medicine, I got nothing.  Was told SO many contradictory and confusing facts that I came to the conclusion there are no facts regarding covid.  After the x-ray I told the doctor that I have GGOs in one lung and he said "well then you've had covid".  Pulmonologist said not definitive.  I informed him that my blood test for antibodies was negative so I could not have had it, he said that test is useless.  WHY GIVE IT???? The nurse told me that the in-car tests are not accurate and inserted the swab much deeper, said you must have symptoms in order to test.  Mark had no symptoms at the time and did the in-car swab, positive. According to her, impossible. They even differ between doctors and hospitals as to monoclonal treatments, testing, quarantine length, everything.  This nurse has been treating covid patients since the beginning, claims that day 15 - 18 are the absolute worse, she knows what I have is covid regardless of the test because of exposure, has a different time frame on monoclonals. told me to be very careful.  With what????  Stay home until you can't breathe and then it's OK to come in and we'll reserve a ventilator for you.  I understand that no one really knows the facts, Fauci who once was a wealth of information seems more concerned in how he looks on TV, and changes his mind daily, many times opposite of the CDC.  No one is to blame for this, but stop giving random guidelines or opinions between hospitals.  I'm done.  Not mentioning it again, nor the mess in the photo below.  I said I wouldn't again, but this one is just so insane.  What the hell is with all the green in almost all my choices?

 So ticked off.  I have pieces from all the dyers and PTP and Seraphim seem to be fairly consistent.  But I will never order Fiber on a Whim again.  Same count, same fabric, they seem to the most disappointing.  I'm sorry.  If your supplier is different, test it!  Adjust it.  Red tones green to brown, green tones pink to brown, violet tones yellow to tan, it's not rocket science.  And it's cost me quite a bit.  I am so grateful for Hobby House not only for service, but their policies.  They are dying their own now and that may be the last I try.  You know I am going to ruin these non-colorfast linens trying to get rid of the green don't you?  Especially the buttermilk and this one.  I will cut a small piece and see what the result is, probably as disastrous as before.  What the hell.  When I get this disgusted with everything, caution and reason are out the window.  Laptop to soon follow,

Last warm day here.  Enjoy yours.  Taking a few days off.

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That rock and the hard place.

 That's where I am.  Quickly, a mild headache turned ugly.  Choking, coughing, pounding head, low grade fever last night, chills.  But I once again tested "not detected" so I can't receive the treatment.  My new doctor never got back to me, Mark's doctor who has been handling this so far, hasn't yet today.  That result is not to be used as the "sole basis" for determining diagnosis and exposure is to be considered along with symptoms.  We are hoping this leeway allows the treatment. 

The 600 count print pillowcases I ordered are a mess.  Came out of the dryer like a rag, not for a facility.  It's not easy to find a single top sheet in a print, always sold in sets, but I'll keep looking.  I could make sets of cases from a nice percale.  Can't go into JoAnn and prefer not to sew them.  So I got out the Rit, and I made a few vintage cases pink and plan on pale yellow for two more.  When the head stops pounding.

Wish me luck with answers, it's been several hours and we have not received a call yet.

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Happy mail

 Partially.  This is only my second BBD book since I prefer reproduction samplers and ...... santas.  And I am thrilled with it, several projects I would like to stitch in addition to the repros included.  And Jean Donaldson will be a hoot.  Lots of interest in this sampler and the large print chart is appreciated.  

But once again, I received linen the end of September that I really like so ordered more of the same, and squirrel balls, it ain't the same.  I really don't like to return but since it can't be dipped, I apologized profusely. 

The only shop within an hour from me does not and will not order or carry hand dyed fabrics because she's been burned with inconsistent colors.  

And in case you're wondering, this is a squirrel ball.  He is burying the nut balls in my barrels, pots, gravel, and leaving some out as a calling card, right under the nose of snoozing Petey.  He also left one at the back door.  Silly squirrel.

I don't have results yet, hopefully soon since my window for antibodies is closing.  Headache is back today along with coughing hard enough to be glad I used that coupon for extra panty liners.  Although fine yesterday and assumed the scare was over, I am feeling worse as this day progresses.

Wonderfully warm day.  Ruined a batch of almond bars, didn't go any further.  I was not coughing when I planned her birthday treats and can't proceed now.  When the surgery is over and she is back here in therapy, family is cleared to visit, we will have treats then.  

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One hour and 50 minutes

is how long we waited outside to get another Covid test.  Since my initial test was negative, I needed to test after symptoms began in order to qualify for the antibodies treatment which Mark received today.  Originally, and still listed in the paperwork, unvaxed directly exposed qualified.  But supplies are now limited and restrictions are stricter.  So I had to test again and if negative, no treatment, if positive I will have a day left since treatment must be given within seven days of symptoms.  One hour and fifty minute wait for testing! So what did I do to reward my patience?  Wendy's chocolate frosty and an order of hot fries to dip.  Salty hot meets cold chocolate, heaven.

Before the covid diagnosis we stopped in Kraynak's to see this years offerings, and they had a fake feather style with reasonably stiff branches.  The top branch is shorter than it should be IMHO.  Price wasn't bad and it comes in two sizes.  Not a lot of photos this time but if you'd like to see more of this Christmas land store, click on this post from 2017..... Kraynak's

I hope they have a few of these large bells left when I'm out of quarantine.  I think they were $16 each.  The post from 2017 shows a nice assortment of wire tree styles but there were none on display this year.  Yet.  But they may not be getting any, who knows.

She is quite rattled that I may not be cleared to enter the hospital for her surgery.  Bad enough her birthday will be lonely.  I was going to make our traditional chocolate chip chiffon cake but that would require flatware and plates.  Cupcakes!  Pistachio, chocolate, pineapple if we can get what I need curbside.  I need to check with her facility about drop off permission.  Quite a few staff members have become friends and she can share with them, they will be happy to take her gifts up to her.  We'll wear gloves and masks and hopefully the scent of Lysol will fade by the time everything gets to her room.

The grabber I bought for outdoor stick pickup to save bending is great.  My arthritic hand tires easily with the trigger models and I ordered this in 36" length, might be a little long but I don't need to bend even slightly so this should be better.  Maybe not for short folk but it comes in various lengths from other vendors. The mechanism certainly is much easier for repetitive grabbing.  Love it.

Grabber Buddy

Have a good one!

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