I am chicken,

 hear me cluck.

My scheduled HeartFlow test is Tuesday and I am needing an Ativan which no doctor will prescribe.  Not even ten of the .5 mg.  Everything I went through the last two years with Carole during covid and her crises, I was denied a few pills.  My neighbor, friend, and cousin get them like M&Ms.  My blood work from the new doctor after complaining of continued exhaustion ordered CMP and CBC, no B-12, no iron, no d, nothing else.  My husband has no issues and after his yearly visit is ordered CMP, CBC, and a boatload of various tests for all sorts of levels, kidney function, liver, D, B-12, Iron, Magnesium, and some I am not familiar with.  Also offered carotid scan since he's over 70.  

Anyway, I am terrified of the iodine contrast since I have had a previous reaction.  The pre-medications are 50 mg of steroid every 6 hours along with 50 mg of Benadryl.  I took a Medrol pack of 4 mg doses and puffed out with flushing for days.  Half of a Benedryl OTC 25 mg puts me to sleep.  Seriously.  Two doses (even one dose) of 50 and I will be knocked out.  Sorry, but I am very drug sensitive.  The anxiety about this is causing more palps than ever which would most likely require a heart med to regulate/slow beat during the imaging for a better scan.  Since I am so sensitive, how slow would I go without .... well, you know.  Am I being a baby?  A small clot dislodged during a heart cath and Linda had a stroke that required a three month hospital stay, she will never be the same.  Both of us have afib and PVCs (more prone to clots).  So I am clucking away and feel I am being foolish since I could have a blockage in my heart.  Or it could be nothing.  Yoi.

We drove to Hubbard Ohio to get cheaper gas, and stopped at their little General Store where I had previously bought this little tin for a few bucks to offer Carole.  I kept it.  And then bought another later for her.  And kept it.  So today I bought hers.  And another for me.  The dollar (1.25) store has the little LED candles that last 100 hours so I got a few for inside.  My favorite item and the only one they had left is this faux leather pumpkin.  Sweet.  At the General I found neck gaiters in pink for 1.99 so grabbed a few for her aides.  So much easier than scarves and less bulky.

There are tomatoes growing on the large porch off her room, includes a variety I never saw.  A nurse has the seeds, they are strawberry shaped!!  Small and sweet, not a grape, perfect little berries.  Her grandmother grew them and she saves seeds every year.  Not growing well this year, a low spreading plant loaded with fruit waiting to ripen.

These are the magnificent monster baskets lining Hubbard's main street.  Holy crap.  Every year, massive! And although September 1, these beauties show no signs of bare centers or failing blossoms.  The fire truck goes around at night to water them.  The greenhouse I showed months ago with the unusual arrangements must be their creator and I will certainly ask next year.  And the baskets are moss which never hold enough water.  Probably lined.  

I did some work on Kezia, the over one tent and it is taking some time.  As for Jane, husband and I studied the two linens with stitching and the second green in the vine is not showing, neither is the apricot/rust flower.  I really like the Confederate Gray but it may require too many thread changes.  I dipped the Tobias to remove green and it is now luscious.  Will work on that decision after another day with Kezia.

Blab blab blab.  Sorry.  I'm just torn as to what to do and quite anxious.  

Keep on clucking.

Be safe!!

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Mourning summer's end

 but getting a jump on Christmas.  

Hobby Lobby 50% off this week, a plastic needle (no pinching!) primitive little tree for $11.50.  Could not pass this up.  Perfect for any room, decorated or not.  I love the simplicity of a bare tree.  I also got very small wreaths for a few bucks in the same needle/material for cupboards.  I have several small trees that are very sparse and their needles are .... like real needles.  

The trunk is wound with satin ribbon and I usually wrap in brown burlap strips if I want it textured and more primitive looking.  But for the money, a nice little tabletop tree.

I've mentioned several times about ads appearing regarding a subject I sent in an email.  Well to my surprise, I logged into my medical records for test results, saw that my cholesterol was quite high, and what do you know!  I am blasted this evening with ads for products that lower cholesterol.  Are you kidding me?  My personal medical records and test results that I viewed on my private laptop?   First time ever for ads such as these, impossible to be a coincidence and for every outlet I visited to offer ads for the same subject.

Whine with me these last few days of August.

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Jane

 Remember project #2, Jane Southward?  The 3011 vine was not showing well enough on my linen (seems to be the norm).  For some reason, Confederate Gray popped into my head even though I'd only used it once for a small ornament years ago.  I took a chance and ordered a piece for Jane.  Bingo.  I think the 3011 is showing better on this very neutral fabric.

The chart photo is on a golden brown and I don't know if this gray will not do justice to Jane's colors.  We'll see.  I'll stitch a small area with a darker green on my first linen before I decide.  

After some work on Jane I will go back to Ann for a few more rows, then Kezia.  I do have others kitted but three projects at once seems reasonable, any more may lead to a loss of interest.  After being monogamous for decades, I like having other options if I tire of a project or need a break from overthinking.  I have to say that my stitch station is making it so much easier also.  

Having blood work done this week, my tooth fixed, Missy is doing well (but that wound is ugly), and I feel like a wet rag.  I don't understand how I can move gravel for hours and be fine, and other days can barely stand up straight.  

Our friend had very mild covid in January, and has been needing care since because of mental inabilities.  He was taken to a neurologist and found after testing and scans that he does not have dementia or Alzheimer.  He has a severe case of covid fog.  The doctor said he has so many patients with this, all older, all had mild covid, most recover in a few months but some are severe cases like his.  No treatment other than rehab offered to brain injury or stroke patients.  So far, no improvement.

Hope you have a good start to this week.

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Expo

 Happy Saturday.  The last one of summer.  Can you hear me wail? 

Are you checking the new charts offered in the Expo today?  I found a good listing of them at Shepherd's Needle's site.

The hydrangeas are dried and green, my tunias are starting to fade, and we're close to the end of moving gravel.  And I have tired of the "white" trend.  I want my colonial colors back, even if very light.

My facial ravioli is about the size of a cavatelli now, palpitations have slowed also.

Missy is no worse, as I was brushing her I hovered my hand several inches over that leg and she screamed.  If I moved closer I'm the one that would need antibiotics.  The white/black (female?) that she watches has been around all day.  Missy cries (not howls) through the screen and this stray will respond and get closer.  They happened to be outside at the same time and Missy sat, they stared, and then she walked away.  The stray bolted as soon as Missy started moving and there was no intent to follow.  The yellow (male?) won't leave either.  It could have been him that attacked her.   

I know you will shake your head, but after all the floss skeins I was trying out, all very similar, I had the wrong color in the 890 bag.  It's actually 936!!  The 739 was in a different bag also and I will continue using it.  The end motif was done in 890 and the others to the left of it were stitched in the 936.  I made the mistake of having the cut lengths unmarked and that's how they entered the wrong bag.  I realized the error when I was completing the tree to the right of the lion and saw a slight difference from the already in place 890.   Whatever, I would rather remove one on the end than all the others so will continue throughout with 936.  If you study the colors, you can see a slight difference in that last motif.  Really odd since skeins next to each other are not close, 890 is closer to 500 than 936 yet ....

 And here's the kick.  The original 3011 I used is more my style, more primitive, more dusty, softer.  But I allowed the photo of Melanie's work to influence mine and I'm OK with that.  Have you ever been torn between your usual color style and something completely different?  Were you disappointed or pleased with the end result?

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Bumps along the way

 Like this one.  Accessorizes my chipped off front tooth.  I never felt it.  Was working close to the woods and pine trees, came inside and saw a little red spot.  By last night, it looked like a ravioli, perfectly round.  No itch until I touch it, and I believe it is water filled.  It's getting smaller, leaning to the other side of the family, morphing into a pierogi.  Husband wanted to take me to ER and that's ridiculous.  Heart rhythm is nuts at times but that happens often.  

And Missy got up last night and used the litter box, took a little of the Lil Shakes liquid food, is better today.  I was able to get a look at that swollen leg and saw that the bite went through to the inside of her thigh.  Two inch above the joint is quite dense, no cat's tooth is that long.  It's possible that there are two bites and just happen to line up.  We see her fur in the grass but never heard the sounds of a battle.  Odd for another cat to come this close and attack in daylight.  I drop peroxide on the holes when I can, and will hope for the best.  My brother can get the liquid amoxicillin, but administering may not be possible.

Now about that Kezia.  Yes, I am certifiable when it comes to colors, but this was a definite needed improvement.  I tried the 935 and it was nice, but no oomph.  So I decided it has to be as it should with 890.  When testing, I pulled the wrong bag and used 712 instead of the 739 (the light threads in the motif).  Wow.  Love!  So I removed the 3011 and 739 and all future border bumps will be as the last one.  What a difference.  I hope to fill the 712 in this afternoon, turn my bump into a gnocchi when I smile.  If that green bugs me in other areas I can sub the 935, but it will stay in the border.  Brighter is better, especially on darker linen.  Thank you Adele, I am so glad you offered help, would not have seen the light.

Have a good day.

Thanks for visiting.

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Kezia Turmoil

 Wasn't a good day.  My front tooth chipped off a good deal after hitting the new bottom crowned horse teeth.  I have another break out, itchy as hell, the cold/sore throat returned, Missy was attacked on the deck by ????? and has a large bite, and I saw a stitched Kezia.  

Adele was kind enough to direct me to a photo of the sampler (I've only seen the chart photo of the original) and the stitcher was following the over one border and called for colors.  Yikes.  This may be silk but the color is spot on to 890.  Am I permitted to show this from the Sassy Jacks FB page?  You can see the progress and other photos by Melanie Poe Rainer here..

https://www.facebook.com/groups/255266094663345/search/?q=kezia

I don't know her linen choice, but mine sure looks sick after seeing hers!  She is stitching the border over one as intended.  I am not, I wish I was .... or could.  This is the problem with seeing only the original on the chart and not a stitched model with the brighter colors.  I searched online for a photo of a finish, there were none.

I do not like this green with the 781 at all.  But look at Melanie's work!  That is gorgeous.  

 The 3011 currently used is great, very soft and subdued, is that what I want for her?  Or some pops of color?  I think I should pull up the big cotton whities and keep the 890.

There are no vet openings and I have no antibiotics for Missy, which would be impossible to get into her mouth since we can't hold her.  An injection would be the best, but we can't handle her without getting bit, let alone when she has a painful injury.  Two vets would not accept her as a patient previously because she can't be handled.

My six month CT scan of my lungs has been cancelled, no one is working at the testing and diagnostic centers, and this was scheduled for mid September.  They already know.  My option is the minimally staffed ER at the hospital.  I do not want two high dose CT scans on my chest within weeks of each other but the heart angio scan can't include the lungs.  They're right there!!  Use Landscape setting!!  Whatever.

Moving gravel again today, found a place to transfer it all and it will work well.  

Have a good day folks.

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